i feel like... i wish i had more business at work. i'm stressed out about things like... rent. and trying to save money for more rent while lucas and i are in argentina. i knew it would be rough, but how was i to predict the amount of damage reckless wealthy individuals and companies would cause? deregulation......what a scary word. see what happens when there isn't ENOUGH regulation?
i'm looking forward to the day when i can say that i do not live week by week on my pay. and i'm doing pretty well.. i think. i mean, i think i manage just fine. i eat every day, and by careful calculations, live very comfortably!
then i think about people who have $800 electricity bills, and people that spend more money on things like clothing than i make in a month. people that give their children lexus SUVs for their birthday. that's sickening... all i want is to have a few "grown up" things like maybe new towels and a semi-consistent not-crappy silverware drawer.
so, i'm going to go into a pretend magical world right now and make an unrealistic christmas list. things that i would LOVE to have, but would expect anyone to actually buy them. some of them aren't expensive i guess, i just won't ask for stuff. i just want to dream about it and look at pretty pictures, because that gives me a lot of happiness in itself.
THULE roof rack for my MINI! please!
i need a new coat, a quality and warm one.
i'd love some boots. not that i need them in tx.
had no luck in thrift stores with my size wingtips or oxfords.
these are really nice.
someone please organize my art stuff.
and my art area.
a nice armchair to replace my lawnchair furniture.
a beautiful and useful kitchen.
oriental shorthair kitties!
a nice little house in North Park or Normal Heights or Hillcrest. San Diego.
with a back yard/porch.
hat that actually fits.
a t@b (or similar) camper!! burningman solved!
knog panniers... for real.